Hospital revisited

So the very day of my last post (well, technically that night) I went back into the hospital.  Turns out my abscess came back.  Some combination of either the drain being pulled or the antibiotics being stopped too soon — or both.  Bleh.

Another 4 days in the hospital.  But, I was diligent with the pumping this time.  Regardless, she was fed 50/50 formula/milk while I was there, just because Andrew didn’t want me to feel to stressed or pressured.  Which is a relief.  We were actually able to put some milk in the freezer, too.  Then I got home and we went back to 100% milk, but I wasn’t quite keeping up with it, so we had to defrost some.  So right now we’re supplementing with about 25% formula.  I think I’m right around the right amount to feed her, but it’s close.  Anyway, I’m not sure what the right answer is, but we’ll figure it out…. probably by the time she starts eating solids. 😉

As for me, I’m getting better, I think.  I hope.  I’m on IV antibiotics (yes, at home)… Andrew’s been amazing doing those for me every morning.  I have another doctor’s appointment on Thursday.  Hopefully he has good news, that things are finally going away.  I just want to be better.

Unfortunately, we had to cancel our trip to the East Coast.  Just because there was no guarantee I’d be healthy by then, and even if I am, it would be a lot of energy to fly across the country… especially with a 3 month old.  So that sucks.

But on the plus side, I got an awesome new camera right before I got sick, and I’ve been taking lots of cool pictures.  I’ve even been taking a photography class at the the community college up the street. 🙂  I may want to do it for money at some point, but I’m not there yet, and just having fun with it so far. 🙂

Lactation cookies

Yesterday I made lactation cookies.  Despite the fact that my baby girl hasn’t had any formula since Friday, I am now a little paranoid, and would love to be able to create a freezer stash.  Even a small one.  I had zero built up stash when I went into the hospital.

Anyway, here are the cookies:

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I think they’re already making a difference.  Yesterday at 3am I pumped just over 4oz, today at 4am I pumped close to 6 1/2.  And I’ve been able to feed her entirely from my boobs, instead of having to add some that I pumped into a bottle.  So that’s progress!

She’s also back in cloth diapers.  Her rash seems to be gone *knock on wood.*

So things are slowly returning to normal…

Hello baby!

OMG I have a baby.  A real eating, pooping, crying baby!  She does lots of all of those things.

Taking care of a tiny baby is hard.  Like, I knew it would be hard, but this is HARD.  I am exhausted a lot.

But honestly?  I wouldn’t change a thing.  I love her so much… even so much more than I ever dreamed.  Is this hard?  Yes.  Am I tired?  Yes.  But am I happy?  YES.  More than ever.

I was lucky enough to finally have a baby.  I had started to think this day would never come.  So I’m really not trying to complain here.

But, one side effect is little free time, for things like… oh, I don’t know, blogging. 😛  I have a few thoughts in my head to put down some time…. but that’s not now.

Hope to be back soon. ❤