A very sleepy Christmas

What a weekend….  Saturday, I worked my usual long shift.  Sunday, there was a big football game on, and lots of my coworkers had plans to watch it, so I ended up working a double shift.  I worked from Noon to 4am.  Whee!  Then I worked yesterday Noon to 1:30ish… because nobody wanted to work on Christmas Eve.

Oh, I almost forgot the most fun part, where our foster kitten vomited blood yesterday morning as I’m sleepily trying to get ready for work.  Thankfully he’s fine, but Andrew took him to the emergency vet while I was at work… and there was lots of added worry/stress.

Anyway I got home a little after 2am last night (I guess technically this morning) and had a dinner of Cincinnati chili.  Then we opened presents.  🙂

My favorite is actually one that I picked out.  Remember I mentioned a Star Wars picture, in this post here, well, I told Andrew I wanted it for Christmas.  And voila!

adoptHe had it professionally framed, and I think they did a fabulous job.  I’d just assumed the frame would be black, but the red is fabulous.  For anyone really interested in the Star Wars series, here’s the FB page for the guy who did them.

After rereading my original post, I should point out that we aren’t moving onto adoption — at least not at this point.  We’re still working with the warm fuzzy fertility clinic, and Dr. Lady, and very hopeful that this will give us a baby (or two).  I just decided we needed the poster, regardless of whether or not we adopt. 🙂

I also got lots of other goodies.  Including some sexy things… wink wink, nudge nudge. 😉  Lots of candy and yummy things, too. Overall a very good haul.

Possibly one of the hardest things today is seeing all the adorable babies/small children so happy with their Christmas presents on Facebook. 😦  But, I’m trying not to be too much of a downer here on Christmas.  Even if AF decided to show up just in time for Christmas…

Anyway, Merry Christmas from all of us, including Chad the foster kitty, who’s been laying on my chest the whole time I’ve been typing this. 🙂

Chad

 

Five days until the big 3-0

Yup.  December 6th I will turn 30.  I don’t think I’ve mentioned this yet, because TTC and IF have been pretty all-consuming.  But it’s kind of a big deal.  I mean, as far as birthdays go. We’re having a party on Saturday with some friends and Family, it should be fun.  Of course, I was really hoping to be able to share some good news, and not drink… but in lieu of that, I’ll just get smashed.

When Andrew and I first started talking about TTC, somewhere around 2 1/2-3 years ago, before he was ready, I asked him if he thought it was reasonable that we’d have at least one kid before I turned 30, and he said absolutely.  Now I’m not even going to be pregnant in time for the big birthday.  *sigh*

Anyway.  The party will be fun, and it’ll be good to see people.  So that’s enough of a pity party for today.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!

Today I’m thankful for so many things… loving friends and family, especially my amazing husband. ❤  Two adorable kitties!  And, most recently, really really REALLY good health insurance… we are so lucky to have any fertility coverage, but even that is so much more than most people.

Otherwise not much news on the IVF front… looks like the trigger is gone.  Now I just hope with all my might that I get a second line in the next few days….

And now I’m off to stuff my face with SO MUCH delicious food.  (I’m also really thankful my husband is an amazing cook! NOM NOM NOM)

How did we get here?

Andrew and I met in January of 2005.  After a somewhat convoluted story of a long-distance, on-and-off again relationship, we got together for keeps in 2008.  At our little get back together rendezvous, Andrew admitted that he wasn’t sure whether or not he even wanted children.  I told him, no, that was a deal-breaker, I absolutely wanted to have children.  To which he agreed, and as time went on, he grew to realize that he also really wanted to have children.

Our rendezvous was in March 2008, and I then moved to Seattle to live with Andrew July 1st.  Three days later, Andrew proposed while we watched the fireworks from our new apartment.  It was very romantic!  We were married at the courthouse on March 20th, 2009, and had the big wedding celebration on our one year anniversary, in Baltimore, MD.

I knew from a very early age that I wanted to have children.  I was 12 years old when I started babysitting, and that experience is what made me realize I wanted to have my own children some day.  However, my early-20s were fraught with uncertainty — employment, student loans, poor financial decisions typical of that age group, and of course love.  So I knew I was in no position to even consider having a child.

So, as soon as Andrew and I got engaged, I got bitten with the baby bug something fierce.  I could feel my biological clock ticking.  Andrew, however, took a little more time to be comfortable with the idea.  Let’s get married first.  Ok.  Let’s have the big wedding first.  Ok, ok!  Let’s buy a house first.  Oh, come on!  Fine.

We did all that.  We closed on our (five bedroom!) house in November 2010, and started trying to conceive (TTC) shortly after, in January 2011.

Eighteen months later, and here we are.  Waiting….